I haven’t posted much about the Terri Schiavo case in Florida because there’s not much I can add beyond my prayers to the many fine posts and exhortations already out there.
I have been following this closely, however, and I’ve pondered what generally appears to be a shrug-like response from much of country when it comes to the possibility that a profoundly disabled woman may be starved to death.
This, by the way, in a country where death threats are made on the life of someone who proposes legalizing the hunting of feral cats in Wisconsin and where opponents of capital punishment easily capture the ear of the media in an effort to spare the life of even the most heinous criminals. I wonder what the reaction would be if a judge agreed with Michael Schiavo that Terri’s life wasn’t worth living, but instead of going through the mental and legal gymnastics of interpreting food and water as extreme medical measures that can legally be withheld, simply said “you have the State’s permission to shoot her.” Or, what if Scott Peterson’s sentence were to be carried out by starvation? And are there no prominent feminists who find anything of interest in this at all?
To be fair, I think most people simply figure this is an unfortunate situation and assume that the current state of events has come about only after exhaustive medical and ethical deliberation. Now it appears that that may be far from the case, and that Terri’s condition may have been diagnosed on the flimsiest of tests and her treatment has been based – most charitably – on convenience or at worst on an agenda.
Read this article from the National Review Online to find out why several expert, board-certified neurologists are asking for, at the least, a reevaluation of Terri’s condition, citing that even basic tests such as an MRI or Positron Emission Tomography (PET) haven’t been conducted and that there are other gaps in her care that are questionable.
Please read the NRO article. I’ll warn you that it is rather long and may be a bit of an inconvenience. If so, it will be only a minor one and I apologize in advance. There is someone else out there, however, who may find that being inconvenient is a capital offense.
Update:
On Wednesday, March 23 the National Review Online posted the following affidavit from William P. Cheshire, Jr., MD. Dr. Cheshire is a neurologist and certified by the American Board of Psychiatry and Neurology and is an appointed volunteer with the Florida statewide Adult Protective Services team, in which capacity he conducted an independent, 90 minute examination of Terri Schiavo on March 1, 2005. To date, the courts have not admitted this affidavit.
The link is to a PDF file of the original document and is somewhat fuzzy. I have retyped an excerpt of seven observations made by Dr. Cheshire below. You can use the link above to read the document in its entirety, including the footnotes to clinical studies in the original that I have omitted in my retyping. These observations, again, are from an expert who has been able to visit Terri Schiavo recently, and may be illuminating to anyone who has the impression that she is little more than a houseplant.
Based on my review of extensive medical records documenting Terri’s case over the years, on my personal observations of Terri, and on my observations of Terri’s responses in the many hours of videotapes taken in 2002, she demonstrates a number of behaviors that I believe cast a reasonable doubt on the prior diagnosis of PVS. These include:
1. Her behavior is frequently context-specific. For example, her facial expression brightens and she smiles in response to the voice of familiar persons such as her parents or her nurse. Her agitation subsides and her facial demeanor softens when quiet music is played. When jubilant piano music is played, her face brightens, she lifts her eyebrows, smiles, and even laughs. Her lateral gaze toward the tape player is sustained for many minutes. Several times I witnessed Terri briefly, albeit inconsistently, laugh in response to a humorous comment someone in the room had made. I did not see her laugh in the absence of someone else’s laughter.
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2. Although she does not seem to track or follow visual objects consistently or for long periods of time, she does fixate her gaze on colorful objects or human faces for some 15 seconds at a time and occasionally follow with her eyes at least briefly as these objects move from side to side. When I first walked into her room, she immediately turned her head toward me and looked directly at my face. There was a look of curiosity or expectation in her expression, and she maintained eye contact for about half a minute. Later, when she again looked at me, she brought her lips together as if to pronounce the letter “O,” and although for a moment it appeared that she might be making an intentional effort to speak, her face then fell blank, and no words came out.
3. Although I did not hear Terri utter distinct words, she demonstrates emotional expressivity by her use of single syllable vocalizations such as “ah,” making cooing sounds, or by expressing guttural sounds of annoyance or moaning appropriate to the context of the situation. The context-specific range and variability of her vocalizations suggests at least a reasonable probability of the processing of emotional thought within her brain. There have been reports of Terri rarely using actual words specific to her situational context. The July 25, 2003 affidavit of speech pathologist Sara Green Mele, MS, on page 6, reads, “The records of Mediplex reflect the fact that she has said ‘stop’ in apparent response to a medical procedure being done to her.” The Adult Protective Services team has been unable to retrieve those original medical records in this instance.
4. Although Terri has not consistently followed commands, there appear to be some notable exceptions. In the taped examination by Dr. Hammesfahr from 2002, when asked to close her eyes she began to blink repeatedly. Although it was unclear whether she squeezed her grip when asked, she did appear to raise her right leg four times in succession each time she was asked to do so. Rehabilitation notes form 1991 indicated that she tracked inconsistently, and although did not develop a yes/no communication system, did follow some commands inconsistently and demonstrated good eye contact to family members.
5. There is a remarkable moment in the videotape of the September 3, 2002 examination by Dr. Hammesfahr that seemed to go unnoticed at the time. At 2:44 p.m., Dr. Hammesfahr had just turned Terri onto her right side to examine her back with a painful sharp stimulus (a sharp piece of wood), to which Terri had responded with signs of discomfort. Well after he ceased applying the stimulus and had returned Terri to a comfortable position, he says to her parents, “So, we’re going to have to roll her over…” Immediately Terri cries. She vocalizes a crying sound, “Ugh, ha, ha, ha,” presses her eyebrows together, and sadly grimaces. It is important to note that, at that moment, no one is touching Terri or causing actual pain. Rather, she appears to comprehend the meaning of Dr. Hammesfahr’s comment and signals her anticipation of pain. This response suggests some degree of language processing and interpretation at the level of the cerebral cortex. It also suggests that she may be aware of pain beyond what could be explained by simple reflex withdrawal.
6. According to the definition of PVS published by the American Academy of Neurology, “persistent vegetative state patients do not have the capacity to experience pain or suffering. Pain and suffering are attributes of consciousness requiring cerebral cortical functioning, and patients who are permanently and completely unconscious cannot experience these symptoms.” And yet, in my review of Terri’s medical records, pain issues keep surfacing. The nurses at Woodside Hospice told us that she often has pain with menstrual cramps. Menstrual flow is associated with agitation, repeated or sustained moaning, facial grimacing, limb posturing, and facial flushing, all of which subside once she is given ibuprofen. Some of the records document moaning, crying, and other painful behavior in the setting of urinary tract infection.
The neurologic literature has traditionally distinguished between, on one hand, the patterned reflex response resulting form mere activation of spinal and brain stem pain circuits in PVS and, on the other hand, conscious awareness of pain which requires participation by the cerebral cortex, including interpretation, felt emotional awareness, and volitional avoidance behavior that would not be expected to occur in PVS. Recent studies suggest, however, that such a distinction may not be the clear bright line previously imagined. Laureys and colleagues demonstrated, for example, neuronal processing activity in the primary somatosensory area of the cerebral cortex in response to noxious stimuli in patients with PVS.
Regardless of what objective measures may be available, the conscious experience of pain remains a phenomenon directly discernable only trough introspective awareness, which means that one cannot directly know with certainty the pain another person experiences. If, as the authors of a consensus statement on PVS wrote in 1994, there are some cases in which “the absence of a response cannot be taken as proof of the absence of consciousness,” then should not the clear presence of pain be given serious consideration as possibly indicating conscious awareness of Terri Schiavo? The fact that Terri’s responses to pain have been context-specific, sustained, and in the taped example I cited, in response to a spoken sentence, all suggest the possibility that she may be at some level consciously aware of pain.
Terri has received analgesic medication as treatment for her pain behavior. This seems to be appropriate medical treatment if one cannot know with certainty whether her behavior indicates conscious awareness of pain. If a patient behaves as if in pain, then the clinically prudent and compassionate response, when in doubt, is to treat the pain. If a patient behaves at times as though there may be some remnant of conscious awareness, then the clinically prudent and compassionate response, when in doubt is to treat that patient with respect and care. If Terri is consciously aware of pain, and therefore is capable of suffering, then her diagnosis of PVS may be tragically mistaken.
7. To enter the room of Terri Schiavo is nothing like entering the room of a patient who is comatose or brain-dead on in some neurological sense no longer there. Although Terri did not demonstrate during our 90-minute visit some compelling evidence of verbalization, conscious awareness, or volitional behavior, yet the visitor has the distinct sense of the presence of a living human being who seems at some level to be aware of some things around her.
As I looked at Terri, and she gazed directly back at me, I asked myself whether, if I were her attending physician, I could in good conscience withdraw her feeding and hydration. No, I could not. I could not withdraw life support if I were asked. I could not withhold life-sustaining nutrition and hydration from this beautiful lady whose face brightens in the presence of others.
The neurologic signs are in many ways ambiguous. There is no guarantee that more sophisticated testing would definitively resolve that ambiguity to everyone’s satisfaction. There would be value, I think, in obtaining a functional MRI scan if that is possible.
This situation differs fundamentally from end-of-life scenarios where it is appropriate to withdraw life-sustaining medical interventions that no longer benefit or are burdensome to patients in the terminal stages of illness. Terri’s feeding tube is not a burden to her. It is not painful, it is not infected, is not eroding her stomach lining or causing any medical complications. But for the decision to withdraw her feeding tube, Terri cannot be considered medically terminal. But for the removal of food and water, she would not die.
In summary, Terri Schiavo demonstrates behaviors in a variety of cognitive domains that call into question the previous neurologic diagnosis of persistent vegetative state. Specifically, she has demonstrated behaviors that are context-specific, sustained, and indicative of cerebral cortical processing that, upon careful neurologic consideration, would not be expected in a persistent vegetative state.
Based on this evidence, I believe that, within a reasonable degree of medical certainty, there is a greater likelihood that Terri is in a minimally conscious state than a persistent vegetative state. This distinction makes an enormous difference in making ethical decisions on Terri’s behalf. If Terri is sufficiently aware of her surroundings that she can feel pleasure and suffer, if she is capable of understanding to some degree how she is being treated, then in my judgment it would be wrong to bring about her death by withdrawing food and water.
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Other Articles of Interest:
Go here to read the remarkable account of Kate Adamson, a woman who was incapacitated and had her feeding tube removed after suffering a double brainstem stroke in 1995. She describes the horror of being able to hear what people were saying, understanding what was being done to her, and being unable to react. After her husband succeeded in getting her feeding tube reattached she went on to a miraculous recovery.
Also from the Night Writer: Who Suffers By Letting Terri Schiavo Live?, Abraham Lincoln on Terri Schiavo and Where’s an Activist Judge When You Need One?.A Great Article About a Great Writer
There’s a great article about my favorite author, Mark Helprin, in the Sunday L.A. Times entitled “Dressing Down the Primitives.” This article provides an intriguing profile of an undaunted conservative in a liberal environment who, after standing so long against the predominant mindset around him, is completely unafraid of what conservatives think as well. Mark Helprin is everything I want to be when (if) I grow up as a writer.
Hat tip: Powerline.I am Sorry, I am Sorry, I am So Sorry
I saw the Steve Levy column in Newsweek about the White Male Domination (WMD) of blogging – apparently at the expense of women – and couldn’t wait to post about this capital offense under a headline such as White Man Blogging. However, my fellow Brotherhood of Man member Jeff Jarvis beat me to it. Not only that, but he said it better than I could. He also said too much.
See, Jeff is very smart, but if he were truly astute he’d know that the only appropriate thing he could say to appease a certain element, other than “Please pass the hemlock,” is “I’m sorry.” Furthermore, the more often you say it, and the more abject you are, the better.
So here, on behalf of Jeff and all the other selfish white guys hogging the ether, allow me to say:
I’m sorry I’m a white guy.
I’m sorry we get all the good ideas and strong opinions.
I’m sorry we’ve created secret handshakes and other signals that allow us cheap access to blog hosting services while making everyone else pay through the nose.
I’m sorry we’ve erected barriers even higher than the MSM to keep out the unwashed, untrained and undesireable.
I’m sorry if you’ve never heard of Michelle Malkin , LaShawn Barber or The Patriette.
I’m sorry that every state doesn’t have a MAWB Squad chapter – yet.
I’m sorry that I’m not more in touch with my feminine side when blogging. (Really, I’d like to be and certainly would be if it wasn’t for the restraining order. But I notice the Night Writer likes to wear skirts, based on what’s in the “About” section of this blog.)
I’m just so sorry.
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Minfidel, it’s a kilt, not a skirt.
– NWBecause Ice Fishing Isn’t as Exciting as You Might Think
I once lead a group of men up to Mille Lacs for an ice-fishing weekend. As the Minfidel has previously stated, ice-fishing isn’t necessarily a thrill a minute, or even a thrill an hour. To wile away the time when we weren’t clubbing eelpout or steeling ourselves for a trip to the satellite, I devised a poker tournament.
The concept was simple. Each of the ten guys received $2500 in scrip to use for betting. At the end of the weekend we would use the scrip we’d accumulated to bid on prizes that I brought along. Scrip changed hands at a moderate rate for the first hour or so as we played conventional games such as five card draw and seven card stud. Then someone suggested a hand of “in-between.”
For those not familiar with this type of poker, it is a very simple but diabolical game that calls for very little strategy but generates huge pots and sudden betting reversals that deliver the kind of belly laughs that normally accompany watching another guy take an unexpected shot to the – umm – mid-section. This soon became the game of choice among our group, and it wasn’t long after that before our first guys tapped out. Since it was hours until dawn and the fish were fasting, “loans” were quickly arranged for the less fortunate so everyone could continue to play. Soon enough, the once wealthy were borrowing from other players as well. Some effort was made to keep track of who owed what and to who, but it rapidly became so convoluted as to be impossible.
By the time we were ready to go even the guy who had the biggest stack at the end still owed many times that to other players, who themselves owed many of their neighbors. As we tried to reconstruct the transactions I got the idea to add up all the “loans” that were passed around. Even though there was still only $25,000 in actual scrip, the total of all the loans was easily more than ten times that. Rather than auction, we decided to simply draw lots for the prizes. This seemed to please everyone but the guy who had ended up with the pile and who, as I recall, didn’t win anything in the drawing.
Now I’m sure you economists out there and others more clever than I in finances can draw all kinds of metaphors on socialism, credit, inflation and even the gold standard from the mini-symposium in economics we unwittingly conducted. When I think about the current debate over Social Security, however, I often find myself harkening back to that frozen weekend.
As I understand it, while there’s no doubt that Social Security benefits are being paid, and that taxes have been collected, the so-called “lockbox” is full of nothing but promises to pay. The politicians have swapped the funds back and forth between each other time after time just so they can keep playing the game. Eventually it’s going to be time to go home, and somebody’s going to be left holding a bunch of worthless paper.
And I thought eelpout where ugly.Filings: Name Your Price
Filings is an ongoing section of this blog where the posts focus specifically on issues of Christian life. The name comes about because “filings” are the natural by-product of Proverbs 27:17: “as iron sharpens iron, so one man sharpens another.”
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“Right is still right, even if nobody is doing it. Wrong is still wrong, even if everybody is doing it.”
– St. Augustine.
Minnesota Vikings Head Coach Mike Tice appears to have stepped on his whistle, admitting to having scalped Super Bowl tickets. This is likely to lead to scrutiny from the IRS, a significant fine from the league and possibly the loss of his job and even his pro career. It’s not too unlike what happened to his friend, former high school coach and Viking defensive coordinator George O’Leary who was fired shortly after being hired as head coach at Notre Dame when it was discovered he lied on his resume.
Whether they were aware of it at the time or not, both men jeopardized their dream jobs for what seemed like harmless, short-term gain.
Have you ever struggled to do the right thing on your job or in your business while it seemed like everyone else was getting ahead doing the wrong thing?
Several years ago I talked at length with a man by the name of Ronnie Carroll who had an amazing story. In the late ’80s Ronnie owned a satellite TV dealership in Tallahassee, FL. This is a great business to be in in that part of Florida because it is almost impossible to get TV reception there unless you have a dish.
Ronnie was having a tough time, however, because he was the only dealer in the area who refused to sell illegal decoders that allowed folks to unscramble HBO and the like without having to pay a fee. His potential customers would hear his policy and go on down the road and buy their equipment from a dealer that would also sell them the pirate decoders.
For months Ronnie watched business go out the door. He eventually had to close his shop and try to operate his business from his home. Ronnie prayed throughout the winter, asking God to “judge his cause” and seeking direction on whether he should find another line of business.
That spring a couple of gentlemen from the FCC showed up at Ronnie’s door. They said that Washington had made it a priority to crack down on illegal decoders and they were starting in his area. Their investigation had already shown that Ronnie was the only dealer in the area who wasn’t selling the devices and they wanted him to be in charge of collecting the pirate decoders. All dish owners were being told they had a 30-day grace period to turn in their outlaw decoders and pay Ronnie a $300 “disposal fee” or face prosecution. Simultaneously many of his one-time competitors were facing prosecution themselves and were going to find it hard to stay in business.
It also turned out that the company that made the bootleg devices also made legal decoders. Since the dishes wouldn’t work without some kind of decoder the FCC required the manufacturer to provide Ronnie with a line of credit to buy legal decoders to sell to the people turning in their outlaw equipment.
“Overnight,” Ronnie said, “I suddenly had people crammed in my living room and lined up down my driveway to turn in their devices and buy new decoders and subscriptions. There were judges, lawyers and police officers in line. I bought a sign that said, ‘As for me and my house, we will serve the Lord,’ and put it by my front door.” Immediately Ronnie’s business went from barely surviving to grossing more than $80,000 a month. Several newspapers and television stations interviewed him and he shared his story with all he talked to. When I last talked to him years ago his business was still thriving.
One moral to this story is that God doesn’t move quickly: He moves suddenly. It may not look like anything is going on, but His blessing is already on the way and in one moment to the next everything can change. Heaven forbid that the moment right before that is when we give in. When the FCC rang Ronnie’s doorbell he no doubt thought it was a bill collector, and not the answer to his prayers. We need to expect God’s faithfulness, and don’t let our actions or attitudes succumb to what appears to be reality.
What is the price you put on your honesty and integrity? Will you sell it – like Esau – for some piddling and short-term gain? We live in a world full of hustlers, always trying to shade themselves a little edge here and there. The dismaying thing to me is not that this happens, but for what little amounts people are willing to trade their name and integrity. The thing about a path that is straight and narrow is that there are no corners we can cut and still stay on it.
Proverbs 22:1 says, “A good name is more desirable than great riches; to be esteemed is better than silver or gold.” Temptation is always around to provide opportunity and justification; when exposed to the light, however, these justifications are shown to be flimsy and selfish. Likewise, we may not see the true value of our reputation until we ourselves are exposed, and by then it’s too late. What we get never seems equal to what we give up. Indeed, it is “too late” the moment we cheat, not the moment we get caught.
Integrity is not something that can be taken away from us – we can only give it away. We need to be careful that in our efforts to make a name for ourselves that we don’t end up giving that name away.
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Check These Out
It’s been a busy week this week and I haven’t made it around to check out the rest of the MOB as much as I’d like, but among the fine efforts I did see, two stood out.
I loved the brief but evocative comments from Bogus Gold after the Rather retirement; especially the line “Anchors like Rather are conductors on passenger trains in the era of the automobile.” Take a look if you haven’t already.
Then, you’ve got to read the report from SpruceGoose at the University of Minnesota about the taped message the group Students for Family Values received when applying for a portion of the Student Services Fees budget. I’d like to know just what the tape said, but judging by the report and the links to related articles, it sounds like it was vile, revealing – and actionable.
Read the Goose and the articles. Then you might want to get a call in to Bob Davis, Joe Soucheray, Michelle Bachmann, Tim Pawlenty and the NARN.I Used to Wallow in My Iniquity; Now I Just Spritz
I guess I’m still a little abashed at the Gematriculator rating of The Night Writer blog as 47% evil, and the subsequent ranking by Sisyphus at Nihilist in Golf Pants showing this blog to be the third-most evil in the MOB. It was even more disheartening when I “gematriculated” several recent Nick Coleman columns and discovered he came out consistently less than 20% evil.
Oh, what a world! What a world!
Then I got to thinking about it, and 47% evil is still 53% good – but by who’s standard? If I were to compare what percentage of my daily thoughts actually came close to matching God’s thoughts – whether about myself or others – I don’t think I’d come off even that good. Ah, sweet Grace!
I’m not saying I’m some worm (or “slithering reptile,” per the TTLB) to impress you with my pious wretchedness. I believe it is what Jesus did, not what I do, that affects how God sees me. I know for a fact, however, that I spend the bulk of my day doing things my own way (iniquity). Sometimes that may actually line up with God’s way, perhaps by accident, and there are those few times when I consciously try to do something his way.
I’ve noticed that my gematriculator score changes with each post I make – for “better” or “worse.” Likewise my iniquity ratio changes with each decision I make. By whatever scale, I hope I can keep getting better!Night Vision, Part 1
The one thing that everyone should object to is being fed a constant diet of predigested mush and being told “trust us, it’s good for you.” Most folks want a smorgasbord they can keep going back to and where they can sample and experiment and even see their tastes change over time. Naturally the ones peddling the mush aren’t going to like this, and will warn you that you’ll burn your tongue or get indigestion, but it’s really their own heartburn they’re worried about.
The Vision Thing
It’s Day 21 of my blogging existence, and I’m still learning a lot about this fascinating, kind of scary, new world. I know that many who visit here are new to blogs in general and/or are new to this blog in particular and I look for opportunities to share the things I’m learning and my own vision for what I’d like to accomplish.
Today Deacon at Powerline offered this post that gives me an opportunity to do just that. Deacon participated in a media and blogging forum as part of The Week Opinion Awards (and congratulations to Powerline for garnering “Blog of the Year” to complement the rest of the well-deserved titles and recognition they’ve received). Some of the questions raised in the forum and addressed by Deacon in his post are ones that I’ve been pondering myself. In particular:
Some Forum members described bloggers as partisan shouters and bar room screamers (they must have been at Keegan’s for a trivia night). Ok, and the blog world is different from the rest of the world how? There is no one who has ever written or edited anything – newspaper, book, hymnal or graffiti – that doesn’t bring a certain perspective to the process. Even someone dedicated to being even-handed still has to decide what to leave in and what to leave out and by simple ignorance (different from stupidity – malicious or otherwise) may not even have the whole story.
Likewise, readers themselves have a bias, choosing what to read and what to ignore. Better that agendas are out in the open, regardless of what they are, so the readers can take these into account and gravitate to those they like and/or trust the most. Yes, this means some people may not get a “balanced” diet – just as some people prefer ice cream to vegetables. The thing is, most people eventually adopt eating habits that, despite excesses in certain areas, are mainly healthy.
The one thing that everyone should object to is being fed a constant diet of predigested mush and being told “trust us, it’s good for you.” Most folks want a smorgasbord they can keep going back to and where they can sample and experiment and even see their tastes change over time. Naturally the ones peddling the mush aren’t going to like this, and will warn you that you’ll burn your tongue or get indigestion, but it’s really their own heartburn they’re worried about.
Also, there’s a big difference between a blog and a bar room screamer. No matter how big a font I use, or how many words I TYPE IN ALL CAPS, I can’t make my voice heard unless someone chooses to visit or link to this site. A loud-mouth in a bar inflicts himself on all around him whether they like it or not, just like the TVs in the same bar. Sayyy…just which media do you find on those TVs anyway?
I do have a concern that people tend to stay in their silos, but that’s human nature, not just blogs. Righties tend to read righties and lefties tend to read lefties, and as a result some good arguments – and the opportunity to discard an old opinion or acquire a new one – are missed on both sides. One of my objectives with this blog, however, is to have occasional guest bloggers with views significantly different from my own make their case (hopefully without profanity and name-calling). You might turn up your nose like my daughter eyeing a new dish, but you might also gain an insight that helps you make your own case more convincingly.
Another criticism leveled during the Forum is that bloggers have to write quickly and therefore don’t necessarily think deeply. Well, I do want to keep this site fresh and I am trying to learn to write shorter posts, but I’ve found that if I write off of the top of my head you’ll end up with the equivalent of dandruff – just another flaky annoyance. Most things I write, I hope, will come from a little deeper in. Also, I know there are a couple of topics I really want to write about that I’m just not well enough informed yet to offer a thoughtful post. I’ll try to resist the temptation to post anyway.
And if I can’t…this is a two-way medium. Feel free to use the Comment box. I moderate the comments, but only for profanity and abuse, not for differences in opinion.
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Filings: Duty is Ours. Results are God’s
Filings is an ongoing section of this blog where the posts focus specifically on issues of Christian life. The name comes about because “filings” are the natural by-product of Proverbs 27:17: “as iron sharpens iron, so one man sharpens another.”(hide)When I came downstairs Friday morning things were pretty much as I expected. Faith was working her way steadily through a box of tissue and Patience had her head buried in her arms on the dining room table, crying. What I had feared had come upon me. Now what?
A painful but important lesson for Dad and daughters
One Wednesday evening last summer my daughters discovered a baby bunny abandoned in our front yard. It was out in the open far from any cover and shivering despite the summer temperature. Charcoal-colored and barely three inches long, with the tiniest ears and paws, it was of course irresistibly cute. The girls raced back into the house with the little lost soul, eager to perform an emergency rescue and to show me the latest addition to our family menagerie.Despite their enthusiasm (or because of it), however, my heart fell, though I tried to keep it from showing in my face. Not that the girls would have noticed anyway, intent as they were on the bunny which had already been named Alfalfa for the way his fur stood up between his ears. I knew there was virtually no hope for the little guy (we all just seemed to assume it was a male), but I couldn’t think of what to do to avoid the inevitable trauma. By this time there was no alternative that wouldn’t end in tears.
I could play the big meanie and forbid them to bring Alfal-, I mean, the bunny into the house in an effort to prevent a bigger hurt later, but that would mean heartlessly abandoning the bunny to its already delayed fate out in the big yard. The other option was to keep it and hope for a miracle, or that at least a meaningful lesson could be learned without too much suffering. As I pondered these unpleasant alternatives, Faith announced that she was staying home from church in order to nurse the bunny. “So be it, then,” I thought to myself.
The rest of the evening and all through that night she ministered to the little guy, offering water and half and half and trying to keep him warm. No longer shivering, the rabbit instinctively hopped close to her to snuggle. In the morning she was downstairs for breakfast, tired but glowing, Alfalfa comfortably at home in the front pouch pocket of her hoodie. I was somewhat surprised but encouraged that he was still alive. Once I got to work I did an internet search for information on how to take care of a wild baby bunny. Amazingly, there was a ton of information on what to feed it and how to simulate the care its mother would provide. The information also was pretty direct about the slim chances for success. I quickly e-mailed the info home to the girls and they and their mother did their best. Faith pored over the many pages, now getting an in-depth biology lesson as part of her home education. By evening the rabbit was even acting frisky, hopping around and appearing content.
About 2:30 Friday morning, however, Faith appeared in our bedroom. The bunny was struggling. I tried to go back to sleep so I could go to work in the morning, while she and her mother sat with Alfalfa until he expired about 30 minutes later. Of course, I couldn’t go back to sleep. I knew my daughters were going to be devastated and I grieved for them and tried to think of what comfort I could offer.
When I came downstairs Friday morning things were pretty much as I expected. Faith was working her way steadily through a box of tissue and Patience had her head buried in her arms on the dining room table, crying. What I had feared had come upon me. Now what? As Faith approached I folded her in my arms and whispered what was in my heart: I was proud of her, proud of the way she threw herself unreservedly into trying to bring hope in a hopeless situation, for not regarding her own comfort while trying to bring comfort to another. Still, as I drove to work, broken-hearted for my kids’ sake, I asked out loud: “God, what was the point?” (By now maybe you’re asking the same thing about this story).
As the day went on it became clear to me that it was a meaningful lesson – both for my girls and for me.
John Adams wrote, “Duty is ours. Results are God’s.” Supposed lost causes can cross our path at any time, brought about both by injustice or indifference, and brought upon both the innocent and the complicit. When it happens we have the choice to respond with our head or with our heart. Actually, our choice is whether or not to respond to God’s leading, though it is often filtered through our own experience and outlook.
On this day I remembered the times when I had been confronted with someone suffering in fear and in pain as a result of others’ actions or their own decisions. I remembered those times when I had stepped out in faith, despite my own fears and doubts, and risked my own comfort, emotions and reputation to try and make a difference. I remembered the thrill of being used by God and the joy of witnessing miracles and turnarounds.
I also remembered other times when I did the same and when things – at least as far as I can see – have not yet turned out as well. Sadder still, however, I know there are also times when I sidled to the other side of the road rather than get involved. Perhaps I was afraid of being hurt in what appeared to be a hopeless cause, or felt helpless, or maybe I judged people to be deserving of their fate without remembering what it is that I’ve deserved. In these cases, though I might have tried to obscure it with rationalization, my duty was clear even if the outcome wasn’t. The revelation that restores clarity, however, is that it is not faith in myself (or another placing his faith in me) that changes the situation and makes the difference, but faith in God. The results are His, and even a presumed failure may yet serve His ultimate purpose. Our part is merely to do what is in front of us.
We never know when a dire need may appear, and for my daughters this episode was an early experience. No other thought occurred to them but to act with compassion and mercy toward one of God’s creatures, and both say they would do the same again even knowing how things would turn out. In this I can be content that neither they, nor the bunny, failed.
(hide)More Details in the Mike Tice Investigation
The NFL has released the following transcript of the phone call from an unknown tipster accusing Minnesota Vikings head coach Mike Tice of scalping Super Bowl tickets:
NFL: Hello, NFL Security Office, how may I help you?
Caller: Howdy! I mean, hi. Say, y’all know that head coach you’ve got up there in Minnesota?
NFL: Mike Tice, sir?
Caller: Yeah, that’s him. Well I can guaran-damn-tee you that old boy’s playing with the odometer, if you know what I mean, with his team’s Super Bowl tickets.
NFL: What do you mean, sir?
Caller: I mean he’s scalping those tickets and puttin’ the money in his saddlebags, that’s what I mean!
NFL: Why would a head coach want to do something like that, sir?
Caller: Because he’s paid diddly-sq… I mean, how should I know? He’s the criminal mastermind, not me. Say, you don’t suppose that something like this could be grounds for terminatin’ his contract, do you? You know, without having to pay fer it I mean?
NFL: We’ll look into it, sir. Could you give me your name so we can get back in touch with you?
Caller: It’s Re… I mean, you can call me “Deep Threat.”
NFL: Hmmm, didn’t you already trade that guy?
Caller: Oh, right. Well then, call me Tex. No, no, that’s not it…shootfire! Charlene, what’s that word when you don’t want anyone to know who you are? Animal what? Oh, right, right. I’m Anonymous.
Call ends.